Biggest Fear

Today has been a pretty gloomy day filled with Fear,  rain, more rain, and lots of lighting and thunder......oh and 4 Flash Flood Warnings. I am probably worse than my dogs when it comes to thunder because I absolutely Hate thunder. Thunder is my biggest fear, but I never really understood why it scared me so much. It scares me to the point where my heart starts beating faster and I just want to crawl in a hole. Since I can't crawl in a hole, I put my headphones on and blast my music, I also have my thunder buddy who, although may be miles away, keeps my occupied all day and make sure I am okay.

My fear isn't scary to most people, but that's a part of what makes us different we all fear different things, or people, or even thoughts. Some of us may fear multiple things, some may fear nothing, and some of us fear things that we didn't really realize that we were scared of. For example, I never knew I was scared of the dark until I started waking up at 2am every night in dead silence thinking someone was watching me....yes I know, creepy right. Fears are just all in our head and the more we think about them the more we fear them, so as for me I try to ignore the thunder and try not to think about scary things when I wake up at 2am.

Now one fear that most people wont admit to having is Love or the idea of Falling in Love; I am not afraid to admit that I was once one of the people who feared love. Not like the love a mother has for her child or the love you have for a certain food, the love that makes you feel butterflies in your stomach and makes you lose your train of thought and keeps you up at night. I was afraid that I would never get that feeling, after so many heartbreaks thinking it was "love" some just give up on love including. The key is you can't give up on love or go searching for it, it just comes out of nowhere and hits you right in your face when you aren't looking. You may not realize it at first but when the moment is just right you will realize you are in love and can no long run from it. Now me, I had that perfect moment where he was inches from my face just staring down at me....I was in Love. I tried my best to run away from it because what if he wasn't ready to catch me. Love wasn't going to let me get away because 7 months later he caught me <3 and had no intentions of letting me go.

Fears can get the best of us sometimes no matter how big or how small they may be, but we can't let them take over our lives. We have to find ways to overcome them and worry about better important things; all it takes is just one step at a time. You may not overcome all of your fears, but at least you know you fear less and focus more on the path God is leading you through.


As Isaiah 41:10 states "Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help the; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness "